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Tuesday 20 August 2013
I stand rejected ( Amina's lamentation)
Amina’s
Lamentation.
The laughter of the Irish Nun woke me
up from my slumber and brought me
back to reality; I had been dreaming of
the school field at Gusau, the brightly
coloured walls of the classrooms which
I had cherished and longed to attend
one day just like Aisha my friend. I
remember when we used to sneak into
the premises and sit on the desk and
pretended an invisible teacher was
writing on the small blackboard
hanging on the wall.
“Master me,” Aisha would quickly say,
raising her hand up to answer a
question from our imaginary teacher.
The school was my dream but the
stench coming from under me was my
reality, my bane and my predicament.
I was lying on my mat at the centre for
rejected wives thrown into
chastisement because we were not
woman enough to deliver a child.
“Amina, you are awake,” the Nun said
on noticing my eyes were open as she
made her way towards me. She came
close and gently pulled her nose mask
in place to keep my smell away; I was
not annoyed by her gesture, neither
was I embarrassed; she was the only
one that came close to me and the
other young girls and wives at the
centre; she was the only person that
still tried to make me smile and
constantly told me that Allah and her
Virgin Mary would make me whole
again but I knew deep inside me that
help was faraway, just like my father
who virtually sold me to his friend as a
wife; just like my mother who after
collecting my dowry and the gifts items
from Alhaji, my supposed husband,
now found me a nuisance because I
could not control my muscles again.
It started during the season of the
Locust when I was 11 years old; my
father’s small millet farm got eaten by
the rodents and put every one of us in
a state of hunger. My father had four
wives and 18 children. My mother was
the third wife and I was her last
daughter, my elder brothers were
nomads that reared their cattle in the
distant cities of Jos and Makurdi. I was
living with my other siblings during
the famine. My father popularly called
Danladi, could not cater for us and had
taken to drinking Burukutu , a local gin
that his wives were left with providing
for their children.
Aisha and I were regarded as the
smartest girls in Gusau then because
we were could already recite some
verses of the Koran and would soon
join the boys in the elementary school.
Admission into the school then was a
physical test; your right hand must
touch your left ear when put across
the head. We failed earlier as kids and
could not touch the ear but who
wanted to train a girl at Zamfara. The
month Aisha’s mother registered her
in school was the time I was betrothed
to Alhaji Danjuma; a groundnut
merchant from Kafanchan. He was the
Messiah to my family and the genesis
of my woes. I was a child, he was
already a grandfather.
“Alhaji will take care of you,” my
mother assured me the day I was
handed over as his fourth wife. I
stepped out in my traditional maiden
attire to see my husband and noticed
his coloured teeth; I later got to know
that he was my father served him as a
houseboy when he was a teenager.
I became his wife and was horse
ridden to Kafanchan.
“Put your finger in your mouth and
bite hard when he comes to you at
night,” my mother advised, “Don’t
make him think we did not train you
well.” I did not understand her neither
has my body blossomed to womanhood
but I was his wife.
That night when Alhaji came into my
hut, he took me and ordered me to
remove my clothes. I cried when he
tore through me and thought I would
die throughout the time he was on top
of me smelling of dry gin and kola
nuts.
“You will bear me a son,” he said as he
left; I looked at my legs and saw blood
and semen. His other wives cleaned
me up and assured me it will get
better when I give birth and become
fuller. I became pregnant and could
not bear the bulge, the sickness in the
morning and the nauseating smells
that made me vomit a lot.
One day after many months, I felt my
stomach coming down and alerted
Mother, the oldest of us wives.
“Let us go, the baby is due,” she
informed.
For the next three days I was in
labour; I was made to drink many
concoctions and beaten to concentrate
and push harder for the baby to come
out of me.
“She is too small for the baby’s head to
come out,” they told me while I was
writhing in pains.
“We will cut you further to bring the
child out.” I lost consciousness because
the pain was too much.
“He died,” was the first thing my
mother told me, “His head was stuck
inside you for a long time and you
could not push hard,” she said.
My husband accused me of killing the
son he had always wanted.
For weeks I lay on the mat in my hut
unable to move my legs.
“Can’t you stay without wetting
yourself?” my mother asked me when
I could not control my urine again,
“You need to be strong to bear your
husband another son.” That was her
problem, my husband’s concern and
what the family needed from me; I
was a child expected to deliver a child.
When my situation did not change
after some time, Alhaji ordered that I
should be taken to the back of the
house very far from them so they
could breathe properly. I relocated
and then my ordeal started; one by
one everybody got tired of me and
kept their distance.
“Let me take you to where women like
you are,” Mother told me and brought
me to Zaria.
“You have Vesico Vagina Fistula
(VVF),” I was told, “but we will help
you live,” the Irish Nun assured me.
Five years down and she is still helping
me and I am grateful. Aisha appeared
one day and has been coming since
then. She is in Form 5 and promised to
help me. I don’t know how she would
do it. I wait for her help but until then,
I stand rejected.
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